fingers or toy...

i am usually a total finger girl...i can make myself cum hard and fast "naturally"...though i generally need something between my fingers and clit though due to extreme sensitivity (a washcloth, panties...something)

last nite i was delicate...i needed to be held...this was not going to happen in reality...i had to figure out a way to comfort myself...cumming hard and fast was not what was needed...i reached into a bag kept near my bed...knowing what i was looking for...a small velvet jewelry bag that contained a gift from my friend k.

the toy in this little velvet jewelry bag is pink, soft and nubby...it has a loop for a finger and a battery to make it vibrate gently...this wonderful piece of yum is about 2 inches long...no cumming quick with this baby...

i ran it over my pussy lips...slightly inside...more and more...to my spot...felt nice...but i had to concentrate...resting the soft, vibrating nubby friend against my spot i waited...my body starting to warm...i moved deeper...not moving much...i was able to think and hold the warm goodness spreading through my body...

just so it is understood...this whole experience was not easy for me...i am an instant gratification kinda girl...waiting is not what i like to do...i chew hard candy, and watch movies immediately available online...

my hands started moving in slow circles...i fell into that place...i was savoring the journey...holding onto the flashes of light and heat grazing my skin...i knew i would get there...but for once no rush was needed...

building to a slow and steady height...my door slowly opened, my orgasm a i hugged hello, i had missed this friend...our visit was long and comforting...

i could sleep...

girl versus cat...(old writing)

she had an affair with a cat
it had been a steamy hot night
why not? a fling, quick and painless
as affairs were or should be
it lapped up the milk gratefully and slid away as she slept

"thoughts during" (old writing)

he stuck his fingers in me and wiggled them around a little
"mmmm" i said
"hmmm" i thought
he pinched my nipples and roughly handled my breasts
i made my breath come out in short gasps
"do you like that?" he asked
"do you want the truth?" i thought

#hnt :)

#hnt :)
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yes it hurts...feels like your soul is broken...

yes sweet girl...i know...feels like someone broke a much needed piece of your body...i know...understand this...my theory if you dont mind...i know you are delicate right now and trying to be numb...but imagine that your needs and wants and desires are broken up into compartments...each loved one fills some or most of each little box...the closest friends and most wonderful people fill more of each of these containers within us...you have empty parts right now...thats because you are missing some filling...dont worry...you are a strong and beautiful woman inside and out...lots of folks that can make you full again...you just might need more people to help out...kissses...

one of my dearest friends taught me how to masturbate...

tomorrow i will see a good friend i havent seen in almost 4 years. we will have 24 hours together. im so happy. mary ellen(a name that she doesnt use but is hers) taught me how to masturbate. we were in college and i confided in her that i had never cum. she was amazed. i told mary that i had touched and played but never had gotten to that point. dont get too excited my dear readers, she drew me a picture and told me how to give myself an orgasm. she told me when i felt i wanted to stop, i shouldnt..."just keep going..." i was 20 years old and a senior. i think i must have practiced my newly learned skill maybe once or twice a day for maybe 2 weeks. i was a late bloomer, to say the least. i adore her, mary did not laugh at me. i wish i still had the diagram...

do you think people have"kinkdar"?

was having a chat with a very close friend about this subject...when you are out and about do you think people know that you are shall we say "opened" to certain sexual proclivities?...i do...i think we can almost smell each other...of course i am talking about people who don't necessarily let that adorable "freak flag" fly...i know that many of us consider ourselves undercover due to professional and or other issues...my good buddies know how i am...and of course the people in my particular circle have a very good idea of what i like sexually...but what about the coworkers, neighbors, and aquaintances?...what do you think?

judy blume...taught me about hardons...etc

i am one of 3 daughters...of penis i knew nothing until i read me some judy...judy blume was the author that spoke to me as a tween reader...then again maybe i wont...wow, what a fine teaching book for a young lady...forever...holy crap...he touched her BOOBS!!!...are you there god?...its me margaret, deenie, TONGUE KISSSSSSING...i ate up judy's books...and i think i reread margaret a few years ago...still good stuff...:) http://www.judyblume.com/books.php

ready for bed and thinking...

i was at the pool today...one piece suit due to the fact i put on some weight since last year...i am not tan as i told you earlier...i was amused when i saw random men glance at me...i am always surprised when people look...been a theme for me throughout my life...what are they looking at?...bandana in my hair...sunglasses...not at all glamorous...when i go out and play i doll myself up (dolling myself up does not include much makeup due to the fact that im not a fan of putting the work into it)...something a sexy or fun...but today i was just some 42 almost 43 year old woman...wandering around the pool...no deep cleavage...and they glanced and smiled...and i wondered why...my wild curly hair wasnt even visible...(bandana)...sooo what were they looking at?...i will never know...ahhh well...

a little piece of writing i did awhile ago on fetlife "talent"

every person has a talent. the talent can be of an academic nature, musical, or something equally accepted by the world. this is not the kind of talent i have. my mother cannot brag about her daughter's talent. and i am fairly sure she is unaware of it anyway.

you are getting curious, so i will attempt to tell you. i am cute and pretty (so ive been told) i clean up well for my professional job. my body is one that is enjoyed by its friends. i like to laugh and be smack in the middle of life. i am a sensual person, my sexual skills are decent. i am good, but not a sexual genius in the traditional sense. feels good to be inside me, i have a sexy voice and nice breasts. again these are just aspects. i can take it up the ass like a champ, and i suck a mean cock (or a sweet cock, depends on my mood). these are things i like to do, but not my TALENT. i will spank you or let you flog me. i will stick my finger in your ass and not cringe, and you are welcome to do the same. i will fuck in a public place, and i will take on more than one person. i will try and enjoy most things.


right now you are either bored or continue to be curious. well here it is. once you talk with me, you will sense all these things if we connect on this level. i won't tell you, you will just know. you will know that if you spend time with me talking, you will come to believe that i am the one who will make you cum the hardest. i can make myself your fantasy, because i know what you want. i know exactly what you desire. you will want me until it hurts and you will either get me or not. either way is fine, because i will make you feel so good. the reason for this is that i want you to feel this way. i care about how good you feel, makes me get what i need. my gift to you is my TALENT.

watching some silly bad icky horror...

today was a day of odd horror flix...started with "ponty point" then "grace" both were zombie oriented..."ponty point" was about a town where people were getting sick and eating each other after getting a word virus(yes a spoken word virus it wasnt a typo)...then "grace" addressed the issue of a zombie like baby, breast feeding from mom...(no, not breast milk)...i might have to watch "human centipede" im not sure yet...its like my addiction to wack movies is growing and i need more and more ick to satisfy my craving...:)...i like it...

class is over i am free for the summer...

my practicum is over...i am free...i have a month to just be...not sure what i will do yet...i hope to visit some friendlies and play...possibly try on some more nipple charms with diva,tess, or perhaps sit on a sofa with lola and jon...go to intheflesh...see luva...not sure yet...depends on how many ways i am being pulled...that is always the case...last time i went to play i had way too much fun...

In bed...

In bed sometimes I'm lonely here...tonite is one of those nights...lonely might be the wrong word...I let my brain go to work...that should help...mmm almost there...yes hello baby...better now...

im a tech idiot...sometimes...

i learn by doing...i learn by fucking up...so now i am trying to figure out how to post pix from my phone...so far nothing zilch...nada...i have a directional issue too...so my father gave me a gps...i am desperately in love with richard...(voice of gps)...he never yells at me or makes fun...i wish richard could help me post pix...

so a little about me...

i am 42 soon to be 43 (september b-day)...i tell quick and dirty tales on twitter...one thing about me is that i love a good adventure...so when i am in the mood i runnnnn away from my suburban calmness and play play play...when i am not playing i can be found teaching high school...drooling over shoes, and buying dresses on sale...i smoke cigs, i dont often drink...im occasionally female oriented...depends on my mood...people suspect i am an undiagnosed adhd survivor...who knows...oh yes and i have very curly hair...thats it for the moment until i think of something i forgot...

ok...i think i shall start this thing...

okey doke...first understand that i do not use correct grammar mechanics...also i do not care too much about typos/spelling...it is not that i dont respect you as readers...i just have authority issues...